Friday, June 1, 2012

Letting Go

Sorry I've been absent for a bit.  I wish I could blame it on my foot, but I can't. My foot is annoying and does limit some of my physical activities, but it doesn't limit my writing abilities.  Only my brain and heart can do that and sometimes stepping away for a little breather is the smart thing to do...you know "retreat is the better part of valor" kind of thing.  I thought about not putting any of this out there, but this blog is about what is going on in my world and my world isn't always rainbows and unicorns...but then who's is?  Hopefully this will serve as a reminder and I will be the better for it.


I've gone back and read some of my posts and noticed that some of my more pessimistic feelings have filtered through.  There has been some sadness here.  Some of it is just part of life, or the passing of it.  This affects us all in some way or another. And some of it is the changes that come with living and letting go.  We all have friends that come and go in our lives.  Sometimes, it's distance of miles that cause this departure. Sometimes it's a natural progression and sometimes it's a distance of kindness, which is more difficult to deal with, particularly when there is a lack of communication...as in I don't know why.  This is a terrible feeling...What did I do....What did I say...Why? And after racking my brain, I still don't know why so sometimes it's just better to let go. That's where I am - letting go.  Because evidently, they did it a while back.  I'm trying to do so with as little drama as possible because there was so little drama in getting to this point. But I'm afraid I'm one of those people and an explanation would be nice, just for some closure. It's probably not going to happen. So, without going into details, I am trying to get back to a good place. I'm trying to let go of the crap that really shouldn't matter and focus on what does matter. I'm trying to push the self pity aside and listen to my heart.  I'm trying to follow my gut again and not let other things interfere.


That being said, I would like to thank a few people.  First of all, you blog friends. There is a rotation of friends here and that's OK. Interests change and people move on, but there are some who keep coming back - You know who you are...the ones that laugh with me - or at me, because that's allowed. You encourage, hope, dream, inspire and share.  Your presence has meant a great deal to me.  Your comments and emails always put a smile on my face and you have helped keep me in a positive place during this time.


And my Biscuits...you ladies are phenomenal!  You have shown me repeatedly what friendship really is, just by being there and offering your support, righteous indignation and humor.  I don't know that I could have dealt with this as well as I have without your laughter and strength. You provide this without me asking and that's what is so amazing. You have reminded me that friendships aren't all one sided and that it's good to do for others, but don't let anyone take advantage of me or the situation.  I love you guys and humbly thank you....no tears girls!

Hopefully I will be able to get back to my normal, erratic schedule next week...Thanks for being there!

16 comments:

  1. Change like that is hard. I am glad you plan to keep coming to your "home" and sharing your random thoughts :) Thanks for stopping by my blog regularly--it means a lot!

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  2. Oh Melissa, I do love how you have a talent for taking what is in my head and putting it into words. Change is something I don't do well with, any change and this life is all about it. I wish you well my friend, I hope you find your happy place and I love that we both have rainbows in our world. Hugs to you!

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  3. change isn't always easy but i can only imagine how hard it is to find friends putting distance into the relationship...i'm with you, an explanation would be nice.

    hope your heart is on the mend soon!

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  4. Just from the little bit that you've shared about the current changes in your life I feel like I can relate. I struggle with it all too. It sounds like you're trying to keep a positive attitude and sometimes, that's enough. Hope your weekend goes well!

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  5. Sometimes the only way to move on is to let go. Unfortunately, I feel your pain all too well right now in my life. I'm one that wants answers and reasons and justification. Let's get through this time together with our different obstacles! We are better than whatever has happened to each of us and we do need to let go... move on. Everything happens for a reason and I truly believe when one door closes, another opens. Hugs to you!

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  6. I'm so very proud and humbled to be on of the Biscuits. I love you too girl!!! We may cry and laugh together...but we will also cut and burn together if we have too :)

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  7. I think friends come and go in our lives, you have to enjoy them while they are around. Glad you are back to blogging, you have been missed!!

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  8. I tried to read between the lines.. and I think I know what you're telling us. I've had friends just shut me out after years and YEARS of close friendship. It's awful. I had a best friend and when I went through a midlife crisis and left to live on my sailboat alone for a summer - when I called her and suggested us getting together she made all kinds of excuses. I finally bluntly asked her if she didn't want to be my friend anymore and she said, I think that would be best. I asked her to explain and she asked me if I was sure I wanted to hear and I said, well, I guess I'd rather know that try to guess.. so she told me.. ouch.. that was painful. I actually cried more over her "dumping" me than anything during that crisis time. What a terrible person.. to dump a friend in their worst time of need. I am sorry you're going through this, but keep in mind.. if they are treating you like this.. THEY are not worth your pain. Pity them. You have us! :-) ((hugs)), Teresa :-)

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  9. Letting go is so hard sometimes, especially when you don't have explainations. I guess this is where we trust our gut, let go of the past and move forward. The past is over, and the future awaits. Your happy place is waiting, go get it!

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  10. Oh Melissa I hear you loud and clear. Sometimes I think that my bloggy girls are the only ones who really get me and take me for who I am. I have (am pretty sure) lost two friends recently. I am surprised I don't feel overly sad about it, however I feel that if they were 'real' friends we would still be 'friends' so life goes on. The only sad part about it all is that my daughter became involved and it almost caused a rift between us. Now that would break my heart. Thank you for sharing, I hope it helped.
    Sending love and hugs.
    xoxoxoxxoxo Sandi

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  11. Melissa, I see some universal feelings in all of the comments here - you are not alone. Always remember that.

    :)

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  12. Oh Melissa, I hear you. I'm sending you love and hugs....

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  13. Melissa,
    I do think letting go of friendships is a difficult thing. A good friend of mine and I rehash sometimes the fact that we lost a friend when she moved and didn't want to keep in touch... but I keep reminding her that friendships are wonderful for whatever time we can keep them. We were fortunate for the good times, and we'll never forget them. Best, best best. Take care.
    Anne

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  14. People come and go in our lives...and the saddest thing is that often when they "leave"---we're the only ones who stew..and dwell..and are miserable-----they just "move on" and all is well with them. I guess I don't get it. Passages are just a part of life....some more difficult than others. Focus on those who have stuck with you....and hopefully you'll find your good place again soon. Hugs.

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  15. It sounds like you are well on your way! I am so glad the Biscuits found you!!! It is meant to be!

    Dawnie

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  16. I'm sorry you've been struggling, my friend. Know that I'm always here to listen, or to skip along beside you with a baseball bat singing, "Someone's gonna get it!" :-) You know you always have us Biscuits to lean on. Don't ever forget it. If someone doesn't realize how amazing you are, they don't deserve you in their life. Love you!

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