Sorry I've been absent for a bit. I wish I could blame it on my foot, but I can't. My foot is annoying and does limit some of my physical activities, but it doesn't limit my writing abilities. Only my brain and heart can do that and sometimes stepping away for a little breather is the smart thing to do...you know "retreat is the better part of valor" kind of thing. I thought about not putting any of this out there, but this blog is about what is going on in my world and my world isn't always rainbows and unicorns...but then who's is? Hopefully this will serve as a reminder and I will be the better for it.
I've gone back and read some of my posts and noticed that some of my more pessimistic feelings have filtered through. There has been some sadness here. Some of it is just part of life, or the passing of it. This affects us all in some way or another. And some of it is the changes that come with living and letting go. We all have friends that come and go in our lives. Sometimes, it's distance of miles that cause this departure. Sometimes it's a natural progression and sometimes it's a distance of kindness, which is more difficult to deal with, particularly when there is a lack of communication...as in I don't know why. This is a terrible feeling...What did I do....What did I say...Why? And after racking my brain, I still don't know why so sometimes it's just better to let go. That's where I am - letting go. Because evidently, they did it a while back. I'm trying to do so with as little drama as possible because there was so little drama in getting to this point. But I'm afraid I'm one of those people and an explanation would be nice, just for some closure. It's probably not going to happen. So, without going into details, I am trying to get back to a good place. I'm trying to let go of the crap that really shouldn't matter and focus on what does matter. I'm trying to push the self pity aside and listen to my heart. I'm trying to follow my gut again and not let other things interfere.
That being said, I would like to thank a few people. First of all, you blog friends. There is a rotation of friends here and that's OK. Interests change and people move on, but there are some who keep coming back - You know who you are...the ones that laugh with me - or at me, because that's allowed. You encourage, hope, dream, inspire and share. Your presence has meant a great deal to me. Your comments and emails always put a smile on my face and you have helped keep me in a positive place during this time.
And my Biscuits...you ladies are phenomenal! You have shown me repeatedly what friendship really is, just by being there and offering your support, righteous indignation and humor. I don't know that I could have dealt with this as well as I have without your laughter and strength. You provide this without me asking and that's what is so amazing. You have reminded me that friendships aren't all one sided and that it's good to do for others, but don't let anyone take advantage of me or the situation. I love you guys and humbly thank you....no tears girls!
Hopefully I will be able to get back to my normal, erratic schedule next week...Thanks for being there!