Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Testing

I thought we had past this, but I am being tested.  My boundaries, his maturity, my patience...just how far can the envelope be pushed?  How far, before this mama blows a gasket?  How loud will it get when she lowers the boom...or will she be really calm?  Calm is prevailing, but not without a lot of counting to ten.  Patience is quickly dwindling and just when I think it might snap, I get a "Thanks Mom.  Love you." He knows what buttons to push. And then I remember how quiet it's been.  I remember how much I've missed him.  I remember that while I still see him as my child, he is trying his best to grow up.  Some of the ties loosen a bit, but not all of them....some lines just can't be crossed...yet.  In time, but now just isn't that time.

With that being said, I am so glad to have my family and guest home.  We, as parents, are learning a new dynamic as they mature and we are learning a new place of letting go.  Not always easy, but the rewards are amazing. It's nice to know that there are times when I'm still needed even though my rules seem ridiculous, because they know so much more than I do...right? But we are all learning, so that is a step in the right direction.  This growing up isn't easy.

Since this the season of gratitude, I have so much to be thankful for...healthy, some what well adjusted children :), a loving husband, a roof over my head and food in my stomach.  And really, that's saying a lot. I have so much more than so many others. I have friends and family who love me and I have you.  So this Thanksgiving I recognize that I am truly blessed and hope you are as well.  Thank you for all your kindness, friendship and support.

Happy Thanksgiving!

15 comments:

  1. I'm sorry you're being tested, sweetie. Teenagers suck sometimes, even when they are supposed to be learning to be adults. ((hugs))

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  2. gratitude----and huge hunk of patience!!! Have a wonderful Thanksgiving!!!

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  3. Of course, we want details of this testing thing.. :-) I know they can be trying, but at least he's there for turkey dinner! Look at the good side of it. I'm so glad my 2 boys will be here with their families, but mourn that my daughter and granddaughters will be missing for the 2nd year in a row. You're one of my blessings! ((hugs)), Teresa :-)

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  4. I hope you have tons of fun with your family and guest! Happy thanksgiving!!!

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  5. My dearest Melissa, I wish you all the best tomorrow and every day. I am so glad our paths have crossed and I consider you such a dear friend.
    It's so hard being a Mama, just hang in there@
    Love you!

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  6. Hang in there mama, the letting go, the growing, the changing is hard at any age it seems :)

    Happy Thanksgiving!

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  7. Happy Thanksgiving, Melissa! Remembering gratitude during times of testing...well done! (I needed reminding.)

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  8. Thinking of you and hoping you get through this testing time. Ah gratitude, it is something to hold onto and remember at such trying times. I need to remember that myself! A happy (belated) Thanksgiving to you and your family. Jacinta x

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  9. Hang in there! And Happy Thanksgiving!

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  10. Breathe and stay calm. Funny how they know exactly which buttons to press - bless 'em... hugs and Happy Thanksgiving to you all.

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  11. I about snapped yesterday too, but only because I'd put off going to the store. Deep breathe (and a beer) helped. Happy Thanksgiving. Enjoy this time with your family!

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  12. Melissa,
    I'm thinking about you. I know this time is coming for my family, too, and I know it must be rough. I hope you did have a good Thanksgiving, despite the challenges.

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  13. I have been wondering how the visit is going and wishing for details on the guest LOL Happy Thanksgiving!

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  14. Happy belated Thanksgiving! Hope it was a wonderful one. Somehow I can't really fathom my "stay with me until I fall into a deep sleep and then cuddle me all night" little boy EVER trying to sever some ties in order to grow up. But somehow it'll still happen anyways. Hugs to you.

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  15. Oh dear! I think the holidays are the worst time for testing...everyone is already on edge and defenses are low. It sounds like things turned out okay. :) Happy belated Thanksgiving to you!

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