Long, Hard Days

Hey y'all!  Sorry I've been away.  Sometimes life takes me away from this little place of peace. Things are starting to gear up for the end of the school year and that means graduation for Number One Son.  I'm dealing with it a bit better, but not much. He and Number Two Son still don't have access to the computer and Xbox.  I was asked when they would get access by them and Car Guy and I told them I haven't decided yet, maybe this weekend.  It really just depends on how they behave the rest of this week....which is almost over.

There has been a prevailing sense of sadness around here for the last few days. Car Guy's little sister's mother-in-law has been battling cancer now for about the past five years.  I hate to say that I'm not actually sure how long, but it's been long enough that it's became part of the fabric of their daily lives...and ours in a round about way.  Unfortunately, I'm afraid she is losing this battle.  She is with Hospice now, no longer eating or drinking and barely recognizing people or speaking to them.  I can't even fathom how this is affecting the members of her family...Her husband, her sons.  It's heart breaking. We've been kept up to date with emails and they are getting harder to read as the days pass. I guess that's why I haven't been here.  I really don't know what to say. My thoughts and prayers are with this extended part of our family but I don't know how much comfort that really is. I know the pain they are feeling...the anger...the why's...and it causes a knot in the pit of the stomach because, short of a miracle, there is nothing else to do.  I think that's the toughest part...there is nothing else to do...but wait. So we wait, with our hearts in our hands, hoping, praying and wishing....for what, I'm not sure.  Maybe just for peace.